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Energy Loss – Going Through a Slump

You know it’s been about three weeks now that I have had a sense of “I really don’t care” attitude. Not sure why but I believe it might be a combination of things. I have a full-time job, which I enjoy very much, I also run a Real Estate business, now besides that I am a Notary and I have 2 online business that I run. One of them is more self sustaining, I really don’t do much, I was able to get it to the point where my marketing is pretty much doing all the work and I am generating a little income, not much but it is self-sustaining. The other on-line business I started last year and that actually requires more on my part. It has picked up since last year, since I have found my method of advertising, the thing is that the time required has also increased so I think the combination of my full-time job, my Real Estate, the on-line businesses and me turning a age that is big in ones life has really come down on me. I mean besides having Kids, and the weight is actually starting to get a bit heavy to carry.

The thing is I really want to retire early, hopefully making it to that date, and I would like to have my kids setup for when they grow up and either hopefully go to college or live on their own. I want them to have of course what I did not have growing up. Yah…I do a lot of things, but I definitely still make time for them, I squeeze it in and pretty much cut back on probably my sleep/rest time, but I say to my self, I will have plenty of time to rest when I am dead…lol. Yah I know, crazy for me to say, but I had the strength and drive s I thought do it before I run out…but I think that time has come a bit early and I haven’t reached my goals yet…so maybe that’s part of my feeling burned, tired and down on myself.

Crazy I know, but so am I the only one going through this or attempting this or maybe someone has been there and knows what I mean. I need to get a pick me up…hmm…nothing illegal, but….wow. You know I think if I was getting some support or encouragement that would definitely help out, but that is not available…I simply encourage myself each day and sort of become my own cheerleader, but it is getting old fast. So, here I am at a point in my life that I just want to throw my hands up and seriously give up…just be content with my full-time job and kids…and not worry about the future, retirement or the kids college…heck I did not get any help for college…I worked through college…I put myself through college…and well I know it is tough and really don’t want my kids to go through it, but I think time has caught up to me and it is beating me down.

My Perspective:
It’s hard to give my perspective on this, since it really is me, but I could say that maybe I took on a little too much, but then again I can argue that and say…I have to do it while I can and get ahead before it catches up, but I am now stuck between knowing I need to get there and just tired of trying to get there…hmm…does that make any sense. I paused for a moment while writing and I am looking around and realized that people around me seems not to worry about what the future holds and are satisfied with what they have now, in the present, or maybe they are thinking about it and just keep it to themselves…wouldn’t know, but I have asked people and many tell me to simply be happy with my one full-time job and cut back on things so that I can save up for the future, but enjoy life now, the moment. What scares me is that when the time comes to retire will I have enough to live or will I simply be anther statistic…weird.

What can I do, maybe this will all pass and I will be back on track, but like I said it’s going on three weeks, and I don’t see the light… am just simply moving with the flow, now…not so worry about getting ahead. Well, thanks for reading and well till next time Latino Man signing off.